So between all those activities and feeding myself and resting whenever possible (which is usually just at night for about three hour-and-half to two-hour chunks) there is no time for anything else. Except a walk. I make sure I get a walk in every day.
Yesterday I took Jonah to one of the nearby parks and ran into Tim and his brother Andy there. They were exericising, getting ready to jog. So I took a picture. And Tim took a picture of us.
Other than taking care of baby, I managed to make dinner the last two days too! Wow. Occasionally I do the dishes. But our place is pretty much a mess. The first two weeks we had several friends and relatives bring us cooked meals and buy us groceries. That was such great help!
The first two weeks I was running on endorphines, but now I feel pretty tired. It's hard to have someone depend on you for everything. The hardest is when he cries. I blame myself - I haven't been holding him enough. Or it must be something I ate that's making him miserable. (In fact, I've been trying to virtually eliminate dairy products lately because I think Jonah may be lactose intolerant. We'll see.) I feel guilty sometimes for wanting a break from him just to recuperate or think about other things. It's nice when Tim is home. He loves to spend time with Jonah and I get a little bit of time to do other things - like take a shower or check my e-mail...
It's not that I'm not enjoying this. I chose motherhood and am very happy. It's just a little hard right now. People say it will get easier in a few weeks. I hope they're right.
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You're a great mother and you're doing everything right!
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